Starting something new

I think I just decided to make a documentary.

I'm not sure how to start, so of anyone knows anyone who can help me, please point them towards me.

It's going to be food-based, but from a faith perspective. I don't really know much more than that, and I'll probably post clips as I start.

This certainly wasn't something I planned on doing, but I'm feeling a growing passion for the way we look at and use food.

That's all I got for now.

QOTD: what was the last organic thing you ate?



I have a new favorite TV show.

I love Dr. Who, but there's no more for me to watch right now. Lost was a great show, but it's over. I like The Voice, but it's hard to get really addicted to a competition show (especially when a couple of my favorites have already been eliminated). I really like Smash, but I don't really like watching shows that are still airing (I don't like waiting a week between viewings).

But a couple weeks ago, I was browsing Netflix looking for something to watch. I normally don't watch things that are still airing because I don't like waiting for new episodes. I stumbled across a show called Supernatural.  OMG! I was addicted from episode one. I'd seen the first episode before, and hadn't even realized it. And it's so good! I'm partially wishing I hadn't started watching it because it is still airing. I've been watching it so much, that I just started watching Season 4 on Monday.  I had to take a break from it yesterday because I needed to get some housework done, so I put on The Voice, which I could just listen to.

But I love this show. It's all about these 2 brothers who hunt demons and ghosts and other things that go bump in the night. But it's season 4 now, and somebody just got dragged out of Hell by an Angel.  Yeah, an Angel. As in part of God's Armies. It's pretty freakin' awesome. The show actually acknowledges the existence of God, and raises some of the questions that people have. I'm not going to get into it, because I only just started this season, and all I really want to do is have yet another marathon and watch the entire season today.

Question of the Day: What's your current favorite show?


Monkey balls

Ok, I tried these today and they are super delicious. They are very easy, and totally breakfast food!! I think if I make them again, I will add some more protein, like whey or soy protein, but then again that stuff might be too processed for my current way of eating. I did add about a tablespoon of honey to the mix.

Skinny Monkey Cookies
Jimmie @ Onceamonthmom.com
3 bananas
2 cups old-fashioned oats
1/4 cup creamy peanut butter
1/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1/3 cup unsweetened applesauce
1 tsp. vanilla extract
Dash of cinnamon (optional)
Preheat oven to 350°F. Mash bananas in a large bowl, then stir in remaining ingredients. Let batter stand for approximately 20 minutes, then drop by teaspoonfuls onto ungreased cookie sheet. Sprinkle with cinnamon if desired. Bake 10-12 minutes.
Freezing Directions:
Cool completely, then place cookies in a freezer bag. Seal, label, and freeze.
Nutritional Information:
47 calories; 7.5 g carbs; 1.6 g fat; 1.5 g protein; 1.3 g fiber; 1 WW PointsPlus



I find myself faced with a decision about my acting career. In the next week, I need to figure out if I can afford to or not to join AFTRA.  There's a really strong chance that the two actors unions are going to merge. Everyone I talk to say it's all but a done deal.  So I have a once-in-a-lifetime chance to join SAG without having to get vouchers, without having to qualify.

Ok, lemme back this up a minute.Right now there are two actors unions (actually there are a few more than that, but only 2 really affect film and television), SAG and AFTRA. The two unions are operated a bit differently. SAG is primarily Film, while AFTRA seems to be taking over TV. AFTRA you can just join. A farmer in the middle of Iowa with zero experience or even interest could join if he wanted to pay the $1600 (ish) registration. SAG, on the other hand, you have to qualify for. You have to get 3 vouchers or a lead role in a SAG production. And vouchers are not easy to get; everyone seems to want them. Plus, you have to pay $2400 (ish) when you do qualify.

So right now all the members of the 2 unions are voting. Ballots are due back by the 30th, I think, and the vote will be counted on the 31st. Once they have a final tally, if the votes are in favor, it's a done deal. There's no extra time for people to join last minute, there's no ramping up, it's just done. They'll still have to figure out logistics and all that, but there's no more open door.

So, all that said. I need to figure out if I'm joining this piece now, or waiting until I qualify. I know I have to join sooner or later, as this is what I want to do. I want to act, be on screen, tell stories, become other characters. And I know I will have to join the union at some point.

The question is:
  • Do I spend the $1600 now? Join the union now? Save myself $1400 in the long run, but go seriously over-budget in the meantime? I don't have any savings right now, and I owe Uncle Sam a good amount of money on my taxes this year.
  • OR Do I wait? Be patient? Wait to qualify? Spend more money in the long run, but potentially be more able to afford it?
I don't really know. My instincts are pulling me in both directions: Save $1400 by joining now, and when I go back to extra work, I'll be getting paid a lot more, and trust God to get me the work to pay my bills. OR Save $1600 now, trust God to put me in the right place to do it later.

I know if I don't join, I will regret it, but I don't know if I'll regret it if I do join. There is a potential problem if I join too early. I could maybe lose work because I'm union and there's still some non-union work I can do. Although, I could go fi-core (lose my voting rights, but be able to work whatever I want).

It's a hard choice, and I only have about 6 days.  I have to join by the 29th just to be on the safe side.

Question of the Day: What's your opinion?


Thank you!

Ok, so my blog isn't 100% back to normal, BUT one of my fabulous readers was able to retrieve a good handful of my old posts.  Thank you very much to him (I'm assuming it's a guy, but he keeps posting anonymously, which honestly, is a little annoying.)  I've got a good hunch it's a guy named Paul that I met briefly a couple of years ago when I did a talk, as a photographer, to a group of actors in Florida about headshots.  I think he's also the one sending me anonymous gifts for Christmas and my birthday, but I can't be sure. He's not denying it, but he's also not confirming it.

I have to say that whoever helped me out today considerably brightened my mood. Part of me wanted to post and whine and complain about how annoyed I am that I lost so many of my posts. But then part of me got stubborn and refused to post at all. So now, I'm not as annoyed because I didn't lose everything (just a LOT), and there's still a chance that someone has a post or two in their cache. If I was at home, on my personal computer, a Mac, I could probably retrieve more than one or two, but unfortunately, I haven't really worked on my blog at home for a very long time (at least since November, and even then, I think I posted that from my cell phone).

Part of me wants to try and re-create those posts, and I know a couple of them cross-posted to Facebook, but that's just so much work.

I give up. It doesn't matter.

Although, I will be OVERJOYED if someone comes across a few more posts hiding somewhere.

Question of the Day: Do you have any in your cache or RSS feeds?

repost: multiple partials

Links I Love

by D.
So, as I sit here, doing very little in all reality, I spend my time surfing the web. Looking up things that randomly pop into my head. Unfortunately, Facebook is blocked (although mot all the time), as are most games, so my usual distractions are out of the question. Plus, I don't have sound, so I can't sit on YouTube or Netflix all day.

by D.
Recently, I've been going through an incredibly hard time emotionally. I know a couple of the triggers, but honestly, it goes much further back, much deeper than that. I'm learning that as much pain as I have, I still have a lot to be grateful for. In my current state of mind, all I want to do is distract myself from the pain by playing games on my phone or watching TV. I know that's not entirely



I am a complete and utter idiot.

 I was trying to edit my blog, going through the old posts, getting rid of stuff that had never been published. One of my co-workers (I guess that's what you'd call him he actually works here whereas I am only a receptionist, and just a temp) came over and started chatting with me. Great. I was happy for the distraction, except I didn't really stop what I was doing. Of course when I deleted the first couple of drafts, the page apparently refreshed, and went to the "ALL" page, as opposed to the "DRAFTS" page. So when I hit delete a second time, and then a third and fourth, it was deleting all my current, published, recent blog posts. So all the blogs I posted in the last 5 years? Gone. And unless someone happened to save them, or still has them published to the blog feed, or in their history, they are entirely gone. There's nothing I can do.

Suffice to say, I'm panicking. It's like losing a child or a pet, because I've been working on this blog for SOO long. It actually hurts to see such a large chunk of it suddenly disappear.

So, this is me asking for help from you, dear readers. If any of you have any of my former blog posts saved, for whatever reason, I would appreciate it if you posted them in the comments section. If you can check your history, your RSS reader, your e-mail (if you subscribe to the posts) I would be really grateful.

Right now I'm just a little sad, a little angry, and a little stressed.

Question of the Day: Do you have ANYTHING saved?


Repost: Dear Brad Pitt

Dear Brad Pitt...
Posted by D. at 5:37 AM
Dear Brad Pitt,

I just woke up from the strangest dream about you. Don't worry, I think this might be the first one.

I was walking through an airport, the same one that's always in my dreams, it looks a bit like Dulles, a bit like Newark and a lot like San Francisco. You came up to me and stuck out your elbow and we walked together, arm in arm, through the airport just talking. Like the best of friends. I was surprised to see you there, especially since you were alone, although apparently your daughter was in the bathroom (in the dream you only had 2 daughters, and she was the youngest). We walked and talked.

You were going to a bunch of different places, but the two I remember after waking up were Panama City and Bolivia. Some kind of humanitarian thing.

After we said goodbye, I realized that this was normal for you. You never seem to age. Something about you is eternally boy-ish. But your eyes speak different stories. You have the eyes of someone who has seen more than he wants to, more than he should. I realized something in the dream, and upon waking I knew it was true: I never see you smile anymore. At least not unless you're acting. You walk the red carpet with your beautiful partner and I never see you smile.

I can tell you're getting tired of the indulgence, tired of the superficiality, tired of people making assumptions about you.

I know you will never read this. Why would you? But I wanted to put it out there that I'm praying for you. For all of Hollywood, but you specifically.

I don't know why, but I feel compelled to.

I wish you luck, I wish you joy, and I pray God the Father of us all brings you comfort and a relationship with Him.

Good luck,


repost: In Search of Good Food

In Search of Good Food
Posted by D. at 9:54 AM
Ok, ok, I know!

I haven't updated my blog in a really long time. I'm not going to sit here and explain why, except to say that honestly, I really don't like journaling and I don't think very many people actually read this thing, but whatever!

I have recently been getting really into thinking about what I eat. I'm not eating my emotions as much, although I still spend lots of time thinking about food. It's really important to really think about what you put into your body.

You wouldn't drink formaldehyde, would you? And yet it's found in a lot of our food products.

How about a nice cold glass of pesticides? No?

Wouldn't you love some ammonia gravy over your chicken?


But that's what you're eating and drinking. Conventionally grown meats, vegetables, fruits, and processed foods contain all sorts of chemical additives that would probably kill you if consumed alone.

Go watch Food, Inc.

Go on, I'll wait...


Ok, so this past month I started a fast that was supposed to be temporary. I was only doing it for the Month of March (with 2 exceptions because my birthday is this month, but it falls on a Monday, so my party is Saturday).

The fast was this:
1. No white flour. This was REALLY hard. This means no cake, pie, bread, fried foods, or other goodies unless it's made with 100% whole grains. I found a bread that I really like, it's an organic Omega-3 bread (has seeds added to it) and I can get it at Costco, which I love. Although it does contain some white flour, it is Organic White flour, and it's not the first ingredient listed. So, while it's not perfect, until I start making my own bread, it'll have to do.
2. No white sugar or artificial sweeteners. This was easier and harder than I thought it would be. I've gone sugar-free for a fast before, so avoiding all sugar is very simple, until you realize that sugar pops up in all different forms all over the place: Prego spaghetti sauce, Baked Lays, even the 'Original' Coffeemate (you know, the one that's not sweetened?) all have sugar listed on the ingredients. This also means the obvious: no soda, cookies, candy, cake (except for my birthday), and chocolate. However I AM still eating sweeteners, in moderation, but only 100% natural, unprocessed ones; i.e. honey & maple syrup.
3. No pork or shellfish. This one is not so obvious off the bat, except that in the Bible, God says don't eat pigs or shellfish, so I'm not eating them. I'm not doing the kosher thing because that's rabbinical tradition, as opposed to Word of God. I'm just trying to stick to what the Word of God says.
Some of this is easier than you think. I still eat sweets, I'm just more careful of what's in them and how much I eat. I found a recipe yesterday for a honey candy that has no sugar added to it (Straight Into Bed Cakefree and Dried: Honey Toffee Lollipops). I haven't tried it yet, but you can bet that I'm going to. I need to buy a new candy thermometer first.

I'm going to try and blog about this specific topic more. About my journey through organic foods. I'll post links to articles and other information.

But seriously, go watch Food, Inc. It's on streaming on Netflix.

Question of the Day:
What can you reasonably cut out of your diet today?

Labels: adventure, article, documentary, food, movies, organic, recipe

Anonymous said...
I read every post, thank you very much. And check back periodically to see if there's anything new. So there. (and I know I'm not the only one)
Friday, March 16, 2012 1:46:00 PM

Repost: in other words....

in other words...
Posted by D. at 11:44 AM
This is a very strange position for me. I know, deep down that I am supposed to do acting and that is my long term goal. I know that, and I know that I have to pursue it. It's not something that I can idly do, on a whim, whenever my schedule allows. It's something that I have to dedicate time and effort and money to.

Right now I am temping as a receptionist at a capital investment firm of some sort,and the agency I am temping at just called to see if they could send my resume in. I said yes, but I'm not sure I'm looking for long-term work. Although on the other hand. It's steady work. I know what time I have to be up each day. I get paid the same amount every week. I have all my evenings free. I have time to cook dinner, hang with friends, plan for events, go on dates. I can sign up again for my acting class that's on Tuesday evenings. Plus, since the only things I am auditioning for right now are student projects, which generally shoot on the weekends, I can still build my reel. I can still do the work.

I don't know. I haven't been offered the job yet. They just wanted to see my resume. I'm going to try not to leap to any conclusions, especially as I don't know what's happening. It could be anything. They might just want it for their files. I did tell Wendy (the temp agency rep) that I could commit to 6 months. I think that seems reasonable, especially as I have no idea where I will be in 6 months, but this is a strange business. I could be starring in a movie, or still hustling to find Extra work.

God, please guide me through this. If you want me to stay here for 6 months, go back to class, and try to audition and work on the weekends, please make it clear! Amen.

Question of the Day: What was your first job?