Life Decisions

So I'm trying to make some decisions here, and I'm not doing very well at it. I like working at Starbucks, I really do, but I keep being forced to look at my current life situation. And it's not such a pretty outlook. Yes, I'll probably get the Assistant Manager promotion in about 6 months if I really go after it. And then I'll get the Store Manager promotion another year or two after that. Which mean I'll be 27 years old and working at Starbucks, living in Los Angeles, and not even having tried to get into what I came out here to do. Yes, I did the whole talent agency thing, and hated it, but I think it was just the wrong field for me. I think I need to work into the direction where I can get on set, or work in my own environment. Which leaves me with several options.

I can become a screenwriter. I mentioned this in my last entry, and while it's a plush job if you can get it, it's a hard job to get. Besides which I have a few ideas for scripts, none of which are fully developed enough to apply to a screen writing school, let alone try to get something produced on my own.

Another option is to get back into acting. I love this idea, I can pretend to be other people, and smile and look pretty for the camera, but just to get started, I would have to get headshots, and take classes, and start looking for auditions, and be willing to invest time and energy that I just don't have right now. Besides which, my schedule for work isn't very conducive to going to audition around. If I could get the same schedule every week it would be different. Or get the majority of my hours on the weekends. But I would still have to pay to get pictures and and get the printed, and the mail them out. Plus, my resume is hopeless: nothing on it is more recent than High School.

The last option is to go into Directing or Producing. I really like the idea of Producing because you run around like some kind of mad hatter making sure everything gets done on time and under budget. Plus you take care of everyone, getting needs met, but keeping people in line. Honestly I think it would be a good job for me, but again it's a really difficult job to get into. One of my neighbors is a producer, and I think I'm going to try to talk to him about what it takes to get into that. There's a training program that the DGA does that looks ideal because it would give me a boost into the industry. It's highly competitive, and it's a grueling program, but if I can get into it, I think it would be worth it.

The big problem is, it's all so hard to get into. I'm determined, but because I don't know precisely where I want to be, or what I want to do, I need advice. So I'm having lunch with Max on Wednesday, and I think I'm going to approach my neighbor at some point soon.

Question of the Day: If you have any words of wisdom, I would welcome them.

Italian for Beginners

I don't like the poster. It doesn't tell you about the movie, because 95% of the movie takes place in Denmark. However because the movie is done in a specific style it feels very much like you're a fly on the wall just watching these people as they go through their lives. They fall in love, have fights, people die, and people live their lives. It's a hard story to describe, and I'm not going to try to do so. The characters are ones you'd meet everyday. There's a hairdresser, a pastor, a hotel concierge, a bakery attendant, a restaurant manager, and a chef. The people aren't classically Hollywood beautiful, they're real, and approachable.

A romantic comedy with and about real people.


Sleeping Beauty

I could not get 5 minutes into this movie before I started to cry. I haven't seen it for 15 years probably, but it's one of those movies that you see when you're a kid, and then brings back memories when you're an adult. All the romance and the "Happily Ever After" in the Disney movie I watched as a kid shaped me a lot. This one though, watching it, and trying to analyze it, it's really not a very good movie. The music is fantastic, and the fact that they used Tchaikovsky is pure genius. However they spent so much time doing the painting of the backgrounds and hadn't figured out how to display emotions on their characters at all. It was a kid's movie, so I don't think they cared about it at all. Some of the motions were silly and overplayed. People don't move like that, but apparently faeries do.

In spite of all that, I love it. It's just one of those movies...


Zodiac was a fantastic movie, and not just because some of my favorite actors are in it. Jake Gyllenhaal plays Robert Graysmith, a cartoonist who becomes obsessed with the Zodiac killings. He's the central figure in the film and, as always, turns is a stellar performance. He's geeky, and energetic, and hyper-intelligent. Robert Downey Jr. plays Paul Avery the lead reporter covering the Murders. He becomes obsessed as well, and when things don't turn out, when the Zodiac isn't caught, his whole life gets messy. He becomes an Alcoholic and generally gets very abrasive. Mark Ruffalo is David Toschi, the head cop on the case in San Francisco. The killings spanned several different counties, so there were many people working on it, but Toschi was the Inspector that Graysmith worked with and had the nearest contact with, so he's the guy with the biggest role in the film. Brian Cox had a small role, but he's worth mentioning simply because he's always so sleazy. He plays some kind of lawyer, and he's totally in it for the fame. The movie's directed by David Fincher, who also directed Fight Club among other. The movie is slow paced is spots, but considering the span of time over which the actual events took place, it's understandable. And I don't like the closing remarks (where you find out what happened to everyone), they're large enough type to work on the big screen, but even on my TV, which is rather large, you can't read them.

Overall a good movie, tense and well thought out. With a fabulous cast.



I am a smart one. I just tried to go to work an hour early. So I figure that I'd come back and type out a bit of a blog before I actually left. I had looked at the clock and saw 11:56 and thought it was 12:56. Oops. Oh, well.

On my way home from work yesterday I saw a seagull get run over by an SUV. It was strange because you so rarely see birds get run over. You normally see possum, or squirrels, or other small mammals, but this was a bird. I was going south on Lincoln, and I was stopped at a light. There were 3 seagulls on the opposite side of the road fighting over a half-eaten slice of pizza that was in the right-hand lane. When the light turned green, I was a ways back, so I couldn't go right away, but oncoming traffic did, and two of the three gulls abandoned their quarry, and the third one tried to carry it off, and wound up getting stuck, tail-first, under a large tire. The crunch was audible from the 20-some-odd feet away that I was in my car, but my windows were down. It was a little gruesome. I didn't stick around, but I don't think the bird died right away. The car that actually ran over it didn't stop right away, and traffic slowed down a bit, but I don't think anyone stopped. Those birds are inordinately stupid. And it's not like that was the first car in the column. It was the first car in the right lane, but there were probably 2 cars in the left lane before that car came along. I can still hear the crunch in my head.

I'm starting to get royally annoyed at my upstairs neighbors. They are so loud, all the time. They woke me up at 2:30 yesterday morning, and I almost called the cops on them again, but I couldn't remember what time I worked, and I looked at the wrong day. I wouldn't have cared as much if I had closed like I thought, but I had to be there at 6 am! I really should have filed another noise complaint. Not that it would necessarily make a difference, but it would be worth a shot.

I think I've decided to try and write a screenplay. Maybe even shoot it myself. They've got these cheap, disposable video cameras at CVS that I could use, and considering the plot I think I might want to go for, the lower quality might be a good thing.

So Criss Angel. [I get US Weekly because they killed off Premiere magazine (best magazine ever, and it died!). But I just got the last issue.] The guy is a major publicity hound. He's managed to hook up with so many famous chicks, or at least make it look like he's hooked up with them. A lot of them have been in the middle of other disasters (i.e. current fling with Ms. Spears). He's either a genius at getting press coverage for himself, or a total sleaze ball. Or both.

Speaking of Britney Spears, I think I might actually be starting to feel sorry for the girl. She's a total mess and she has to watch her life play out on the covers of magazines and on Entertainment Tonight. She's an awful mother, but she probably loves her kids. She's just too young. I blame the American Public for demanding to know every intricate private detail of stars' lives. It's not our right. Celebrities have a right to privacy just the same as anyone else.

Question of the Day: What's the strangest thing you've ever seen while driving?

Snow Cake

This movie was thoroughly impressive. It was so well written and beautifully acted and directed. Alan Rickman is Alex, a man who having recently got out of jail gives a ride to a young woman and they get into a car accident. She dies, but he walks away with barely a scratch. Guilt ridden he visits he mother, Linda, played luminously by Sigourney Weaver. Where that doesn't sound like it would be even a little believable, she does it so well, so beautifully, that she's absolutely perfect in the role. Carrie-Anne Moss plays Maggie, Linda's neighbor, and love interest for Alex. The acting all around is fantastic and completely believable. The story and the way it helps each of the characters deal with the loss of Vivienne, Emily Hampshire, is touching, but not sappy.

The whole film can see life both through and around rose colored glasses. It's a wonderful film.

Man on Fire

I mostly liked this movie. The story was good, the acting above par, but the camera work, didn't work with the story being told. Director Tony Scott uses the same kind of frenetic camera motions and cuts that he uses in Domino. The problem is where it works in Domino because of the sex, drugs, rock and roll feeling of that movie, this movie suffers because of it. The only point it's used to good effect is when Creasy, Denzel Washington, is incredibly drunk toward the beginning of the film. In other scenes, the frenetic pace that's manufactured in the editing room doesn't match the slow tension building up on screen that explodes when Creasy goes on his rampages. Dakota Fanning, as Pita, is precocious, as always, and turns in a performance as much like I'd expect her to be in real life as any (until of course she gets kidnapped).

A good movie, doesn't end exactly the way you expect, but it works out and feels like a true story.



It actually rained last night!! I am so happy. It almost never rains here, and the fact that it rained last night meant I slept sooooo well.

I had the second half of my root canal yesterday. I also had the temporary crown put on. It kinda sucked...

I don't have a lot to say today. I'm sorry. I want to type this huge thing, but I'm still a bit tired...

Question of the Day: What are you doing today?



I'm writing this post really just to say that I posted something at 5am. I have to be at work in 45 minutes, because it's really 5:15 right now, not 5 o'clock exactly. I've aleady brushed my teeth, but I have to figure out something to eat for breakfast. I should eat a bowl of cereal, but for some reason, i never feel like I have time when I'm going to work this early. I think I have one Luna bar left so I'll probably eat that while I drive...

Question of the Day: What do you Eat for Breakfast?


Musings on Pop Stars

So this whole debate on Britney Spears. I don't believe she should keep her children. She's unstable, and I hate to say it but her ex: Kevin Federline would make a better full-time parent than she does. Her performance at the VMA's simply proves it. Se took a bunch of Xanax or some other anti-anxiety drug beofre her performance, and rather than showing everyone what she is still capable of, she simply showed everyone how pathetic she has made herself out to be. The fact of the matter is that as soon as they do a full psychiatric evaluation of her, they'll figure out that she's not truly capable of taking care of those kids properly. And why should the state allow her to when she doesn't actually take care of them? She views them as playthings rather than children to be taken care of.

Question of the Day: Who do you think would make a worse parent?


Manic Tuesday?

If you could enter a racehorse in the Kentucky Derby, what would you name your horse?

SomethingElse (literally)

What famous person, whom many people find attractive, is most unappealing to you?

Orlando Bloom (he's a bit wooden)

Which foreign country are you least interested in visiting?
I'm going to say New Zealand, only because I've already been there. I definitely want to go again, but I have to bump it to the bottom of the list.

Manic Monday

Question of the Day: What are your Responses?


Oh My. Not the best day ever. I get a ticket. Not a speeding ticket, or a traffic ticket or for anything normal, but for crossing the Freakin' double yellow line! I had "allegedly" pulled out around traffic to get into the turn lane too early, crossed the double yellows, into the middle lane, to get to the turn lane for about 150 feet. And of course LAPD has nothing better to do than set, essentially a speed trap for people doing exactly that, and I get pulled over. Never mind that the guy behind me does exactly the same thing. But I can totally contest it because the guy who worte me the ticket didn't even look at my registration very well, and put that the car was registered in my name, which of course it's not. My mom still owns it, and if he had actually looked at it he would have noticed that.

Oh I was so upset. He came up to the window and got my license and went back to his motorcycle, and I started crying. I know, I know, that's so stereotypical, but work today had been crazy, too many chefs in the kitchen type-of thing and nothing was getting done. But I was so stressed out, I just started crying, and I pretty much held it together when he was actually talking to me, but I think he could probably tell I had been crying. After he told me about what was going on, I sat there and cried a little bit more just to get it out of my system, and then I drove off. I swear that just makes me so upset! ARGH!!

But in other news (trying to be more upbeat), I have 2 new addictions. Jessica and I went shopping on Sunday before my date, up to the mall at Century City, and I had the most amazing the ever. Pinkberry. Oh my GOD! This stuff is amazing. It's frozen yogurt, but it's not trying to be ice-cream. It tastes like sweetened plain yogurt that you get in the grocery store, that would actually have live cultures in it. It's really good, tangy. Then the cool thing is they put topping on it: blueberries, strawberries, fruity pebbles, chocolate chips, almonds, coconut, kiwi, banana. And they've only got 2 flavors: Original (which is really unflavored, just sweetened) and Green Tea (which isn't as sweet as the Original, but it's also less tangy).

The other addiction I've formed is for Origins. They're a skincare company, but their products are amazing. They smell divine, and it's not done with "perfume", but with natural oils and extracts. They're great on my skin too. I've been using them for a few days now, and I love it. i'm taking longer in the bathroom now, but I actually enjoy it...

Question of the Day: What's your indulgence?



I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but I joined eHarmony. It's been good so far, I have a ton of matches. I'm a little weirded out by the whole thing because, well, it's online, and then you have to meet people in person. And they could be psycho or something. You just kinda cross your fingers and hope they're not.

I actually had a date last night with a guy named Jonathon. It went surprisingly well. I say surprisingly because, well, honestly, if you know me, I haven't had a date in, well, ever. I've had sorta-dates, and sorta-boyfriends, but nothing that actually counted. But this went very well.

Question of the Day: When was the last date you went on?


3:10 to Yuma

I really had fun in this movie. It's a western and they're all usually so generic that this one was a bit of a pleasant surprise. Russell Crowe and Christian Bale star and anything with them in it is bound to be good. These two men can act. Russell Crowe (phone throwing aside) puts in a really solid performance of a character that you don't fully understand. Is he fully evil as he claims? If so, then why does he behave the way he does? Christian Bale plays a much more straight-forward character: a rancher, a father, a man going broke trying to save his family. The supporting cast is great too. I wasn't expecting Alan Tudyk to be in it, and I swear the poor man has yet to survive a film. Logan Lerman was a surprise, as William, the son of Dan Evans (Bale). He starts out very stereotypical teen-angsty, but the character development is quite good.

The overall script combined with the acting and directing of the piece make for a very good experience for movie, and that doesn't even include all the action sequences.


High Spirits

I love this movie. I have loved it practically since it came out. I think I saw it on TV or something with my mom like a year or 2 after it was originally released, so I would have been around 7 years old when I first saw it. High Spirits is one of those movies that isn't really good. It doesn't have Oscar winning performances, or an amazing plot, but it's one of those movies that everyone wants to see because they're a lot of fun. This one has ghosts and love, and fighting and even small explosions. And a haunted bus. Peter Plunkett (played by Peter O'Toole) runs a hotel in an old Irish castle that has been in his family for centuries. Unfortunately, the mortgage holder is about to foreclose and move the entire castle, brick-by-brick to Malibu, for God-only-knows what reason. So as a last ditch effort, he bills the places as the most haunted place on Earth and dresses up his staff as ghosts and books the place full. He gets quite a lovely cast of characters as his guests, each one obnoxious in their own way. When they all discover the ruse, they decide to leave, which in turn makes the real ghosts angry. Steve Guttenberg plays an American who manages to fall for a ghost named Mary, played by Daryl Hannah. His wife, played by Beverly D'Angelo, falls for Mary's husband, Martin, played by Liam Neeson. It was originally supposed to be somewhat like A Midsummer Night's Dream, and I can see how, but apparently the producers had different ideas.

It all works out though because it turned out to be a great movie. One that probably shaped a lot of the way I look at movies.

Russian Dolls

Ok, so there's this guy who comes through our drive through at Starbucks on a daily basis who gets nothing but a Grande black coffee. He sits in his car, smoking, and cursing in Russian to whoever he's on the phone with. He's totally like Russian mafia, or a spy or something. Today, I was talking with some of my co-workers, and apparently some of them are scared of him. Which I find incredibly funny. Because he's not a spy, though he could be. He's just tough. Viggo Mortensen is playing a Russian Mafia guy in a movie that is out or coming out soon, Eastern Promises, and I swear he bases his character on this guy.

Speaking of movies, I saw the new teaser trailer for The Dark Knight. It looks awesome. Heath Ledger is playing the Joker, which is a little tough after Jack Nicholson did it way back in the day. But, thank GOD! they're replacing Katie Holmes with Maggie Gyllenhaal, i.e. someone who can actually act. I'm really pleased with that choice mostly because she was the only bad choice in the first movie.

The other trailer that I saw that I'm a little excited about was the "Iron Man" trailer. Robert Downey Jr. was probably the perfect choice to play an alcoholic billionaire inventor...

Question of the Day: How do you feel about root canals?