General Freak-Out

So my life is getting really depressing right now. So I really doubt there's going to be anything good in this entry.

First off, I finally balanced my check book, and I really should have been keeping up with it, because I missed the mark on a check and forgot I had written it, and so I had to use my overdraft protection and got into trouble with that. So I got an NSF/ Overdraft fee which pisses me off, and I'm going totally broke. Once again, I'm at the point where if I don't have a sudden influx of cash by the end of next month, I can't both pay rent and my credit card bills. It's so awful because I already went to my parents once and got a loan and hated myself for it. I wanted to be independent, and I'm crying help already. This will be twice in two months. I know I know, they're my parents, they won't mind, and all that, but I mind. I don't want to ask them for money. I don't want to be doing that all the time. I grew up always asking them for stuff and I want to do it myself now.

The job hunt isn't going particularly well either. I still haven't heard back from anyone at Starbuck's yet, and I'm still waiting on Costco. I had a drug test and they were supposed to do a background check, but I kinda expected to hear back today. The woman at the drug test said something about orientation this week,and if it's this week, I'd kinda like to know more than one day in advance...

I was pretty sick over the weekend. Saturday I just got super-sick to my stomach where the thought of food made me want to throw up. But of course there was nothing in my stomach to come up. So it took until yesterday until I felt like I could really eat anything again, and until this morning until I actually did. I'm not divulging any of the details of my sickness because that's between me, the toilet and a lovely bottle of Peptol Bismol.

I think the worst part of all of this is that I put my parents on a cruise on Sunday. They were here, and now they're gone, and I can't call them where they are now because they're out of the country, and I told them not to use their cell phones unless it's an emergency. I usually talk to my mom on a daily basis. This whole non-communication thing is downright weird. (And scary, especially since I'm watching the season of Buffy where her mom dies. It's totally freaking me out right now.)

Question of the Day: How's you're overall state of mind at the moment?


Italian Buffy

So, I was bored and was playing online Roulette and came across this website. I kinda laughed pretty hard at it until I started thinking about it. It's an Italian Wicca website. The reason I laughed at it was because it was just so unexpected. I had no idea what I had come across until I started pretending I could read it, and it had a few words that I recognized and I was like, "Whoa!" It stands to reason that there is Wicca in every language, but I had never really thought about it. Not that I really thought it was only in English, but I'm babbling on here....

So I've been watching a lot of Buffy the Vampire Slayer lately. It's a fun show. Some of the episodes are really great. I'm somewhere in the middle of the 4th season. The guys who live next door are letting me borrow one season at a time so I can watch the whole thing. I think my favorite character is Spike. He's so crazy and always completely fails at his evilness that he's fun. Plus he's got a mean sense of humor. He was in my dream last night. I'm not going to elaborate any more than that... I refuse...

Question of the Day: What was your dream last night about?


Job Hunt! (again...)

Ok, so I haven't posted in about 2 weeks, I know. But in that time I lost the wine job. So, now I have to look for a whole new job. I've already applied at Starbucks, Costco, and a few other places. My mom got here the day after I got fired, so I haven't applied to as many places as I would like.

But Jessica and I did meet the guys next door to us. They're really cool. Like male versions of us, with the traits mixed around a bit. But we kept them up until 5 am that Saturday because I had had a Caramel Macchiatto at like 1pm and forgot to get decaf.

I think I've run out of things to say....

Question of the Day: What have you been doing for the last two weeks?