Moving In

Ok, so I'm pretty much moved into my new place, and after a week, you'd expect as much. The problem is that I've had so much going on with cleaning, and painting and shopping for furniture and organizing, and Max left a wall unit that had to be moved, but was too big to fit out the door.... There has been soooo much to do. Over the past few days we have pretty much cleaned a lot of the apartment. The walls in the Kitchen and living room have been painted. My mom cleaned out the kitchen cabinets and put down liner paper. I scrubbed the kitchen floor (on my hands and knees). We got our stove delivered. We've been shopping at Costco twice and to Target a few times. I bought a microwave (a red one) and some pillows, and a toilet brush. Last weekend I bought a couch. My room is a complete disaster because I'm sleeping in the living room. There are boxes that still have to be unloaded onto a bookshelf which needs to be put in place after I paint my room. And of course that won't happen until after work this week. I bought paint last night to do my room and the bathroom and all of the trim and molding. So I'm now completely exhausted. My dad wants me to post pictures, but I haven't had time to take pictures, and I'm regretting not taking the before pictures with the yellow walls, etc.

I'm having other issues too. I'm completely wishy-washy at this point about what I want to do. I have so much ambition, but no direction anymore. I thought I wanted to be a talent agent, but now I'm not so sure. I like my job for the most part, but I keep thinking it may not be what I want to do. Plus I'm having these issues where I want to be the one going out on auditions again. Which is a horrible thing because I would want to try to sign here at Innovative, and that's on the border of not being ethical. Because I still work here, I can't just ask them to rep me, but at the same time I've now got these connections, and I want to use them. So it's an ethical thing, plus I'd have to get a different job where I'd be able to go on auditions, and quit working here. Which is really sad, not that I'm raking in the dough here, but it would mean abandoning my current career path and casting my lot in with the thousands of other people trying to make it in 'Hollywood' with stars in their eyes....

So, now that I've officially gotten that at least partway off my chest (I've only really told like 2 people), I can get over it and move on, or contemplate it and do that. Whichever is actually the best idea. But who knows? I'm a total spaz right now, and have no idea what I want to do with my life really other than maybe get married pop out a few kids, etc. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and it's making me crazy.....

Question of the Day: What makes you crazy?


Aunt Susan said...

what makes me crazy? - agressive drivers.
and to comment on your thoughts of your Career path; you are Young! don't get to serious until you're at least 30!
go on the Auditions. My friend's daughter & her Boyfriend are having so much fun with the Commercials & occasional parts.
Have some more fun too!

BlueCoder said...

You are definitely in the right city. Though probably the wrong area. You actually choose one of the most peaceful and nicest areas to live in. All the fake excitement is in Hollyweird.